Don't Forget Myself Ep.1 The Fragile Flower

Ep.1 The Fragile Flower: I do me best when I am me, the start

The sun was overcast and grey,
as thunderstorms ruled, 
throughout a horrid day.  

   My mantra, 
water makes my roots stronger. 

Not too much water!

Not getting the sunlight
that I dreamt up.
 
  To grow!

A fragile flower, 
exposed to harsh winters.
        Wondering… 

what it was like to be human,
Can I withstand the isolation? 
Loss of connection.

Strange waves of ultrasound formed, 
                          all around, 
               Spun-around, 
 but still rooted to my crowd?

The winds blew me off key, 
     the storm 
sapped away my energy.
        
        I felt sad. 
I was stifled again; 
roots, just a year old, still growing.

Then I felt flashes of something new: 
of emotion; 
    of frustration and anger.

        Lost again, 
my mind… I'm a human,
but staring at the seed still growing.

The day...  that day?
  daydreams created the fray.

I remembered 
        the journey is long,
mine not always a happy song. 

I remembered new vows I had 
 taken.
Let the ego again fall away. 
            Focus.
Let the pain turn to calm! 

     A distant gaze. 

  Drift, get up, walk free.
Flowers, and steps in a garden,
the seedling, now vivid. 
                      A bright flower. 

All this, a captivating reminder.
The moments things,  are...      
      going so well,
 
When you open your eyes 
          and see.
     See it through. 

 Become all you can be.

What is more spooky, 
                     is when I forget, 
and see that vivid flower, 
    Even in dreams...
stare back at me!

Lost yourself, early night, 
      damp pillow.
When 
                   tears leak out 
   in my sleep.

Always there, its eternal fragility.
Always there, 
                   to remind me of me.

Don't hide, 
         be the best version -I can be. 
A version, 
         acceptance -all of me.

The Work:

Inspired by learning from others.
It drove a new narrative, 
reflecting on my own pain, 
challenges, events, and internal
dialogue. 

The Image: 
  Lisa Vicari in Dark: season three 
  (Also called Das Paradies)
A subtitled German language TV show 

Legal Disclaimer: Copyright (in print and digital) Jodi Curtis and as #Felkja since 2017, and Sarah Cartwright since 05/2024, first published on the 24/09/2024, revised on 30/09/2024